I had that sudden moment… that moment when you think it was time to tell someone you love them.
I was looking for someone; I’d been looking for him all day.
I wanted him to sit with me, at my table, at some sort of compulsory activity for school, but my friends beat me to it.
I know he’s smarter than me, more talented than me, he’s better than me. Period. But, sometimes, I can’t help this feeling that wells up inside of me every time he decides to talk to me, as his best friend. Yes, we’re best friends.
And then something clicked in me at a sudden fight we got into four months ago, I loved him. Oh yeah, that fight had nothing to do with him, and it was my entire fault. But he forgot about it the next day…
Sometimes, he gives off the vibe of being perfect, but somehow, no one likes him the way I do. At least, as far as I know, no one does.
Of course, it makes me uber jealous whenever he talks to other women.
Crap. I hate that feeling.
That feeling of jealousy.
But back to my story, I was feeling jealous again, because I was planning to have my best friend sit next to me on our table, but my friends from another table beat me to it.
So the compulsory thing at school, eventually, the atmosphere became like that of prom, like back in high school. And I just felt so mellow that I began looking for him.
Yes. I’m crazy.
And I thought he’d gone home, so I sat there in my chair at our table, sulking.
Then, two of my friends, Bianca and Steph, approached me, and let me go with them.
And then, I saw him by their table. I was wrong about him already having gone home ahead. He was there, laughing so exuberantly at a joke I didn’t get to hear, and looking at me, extending his hand out, as if he were inviting me to be with him. And that was when I got that moment. That moment when I wanted to tell him I loved him. I wanted to take his hand, pull him away from the crowd, and tell him I loved him.
But, then, a friend tugged on my shoulder from behind and when I turned around, he offered his hand to dance with him.
Another friend, not him, but still, I danced with him…
While dancing with him, I believe I kept so deathly quiet that he must have gotten bored dancing with me. I was thinking of how he’d respond if I told him my feelings for my best friend, and I wasn’t really sure that he’d react positively. And I was thinking that if I did go on with my plan, maybe, we’d stop being best friends because our relationship with each other would turn awkward. And somehow, our close friendship, was too important for me to get destroyed by me getting swayed by such a sudden emotion.
So I kept quiet. When my guy friend returned me to the table where my best friend was, I hesitated if I was still going to go with what the feeling in my gut told me to do. And I decided not to.
And that was the end of it.
Somehow, I knew right then when I’d decided not to push through with it that I’d regret it forever, but I can’t do anything to change it. And if I think I managed to go back time to that same moment, and if I was given time to think about it, I still wouldn’t do it in the end. I will keep this feeling in my heart forever… and it will probably never come out. This is my deepest, darkest secret.
And I can do nothing about it but regret…
- Click HERE for an excellent post on the ellipsis, including how to use them in formal writing (e.g., in citing quotations).
- The plural of “ellipsis” is “ellipses.”
- Let’s see if Yahoo ends up correcting this minor (but common) error. Here is the original story, posted on its website on 3/22/12.
I applaud Yahoo for making such a mistake on an article that can be viewed by everyone around the world. :))
Anyways, though I already knew the difference between “its” and “it’s”, I think this would prove to be helpful to other people who might just happen to see it.
It’s learning with humor! Who doesn’t like that?! :)
For Pusheen, I love you.
It’s so cute! Thank you!
I just happened to see this… I LOVE IT, TOO! :3
<3 <3 <3
I think I’ve seen this cat around deviantart before… but I’m not that sure. LOL.
I think Katniss’ actress is really pretty, but though I like Josh Hutcherson’s acting skills from the movies I’ve seen him in (Bridge to Terabinthia and Little Manhattan), I don’t think he’s fits Peeta’s role. But since he’s already been cast (plus, the movie’s premiere is actually going to be today), I guess I can do nothing about it but sulk and complain. :))
Either way, I like the quote a lot. And I also like this post. :)
Why DAFUQ would I reblog this post if I didn’t like it, right?! LOL!
Give me that map. *wrenches it from hands*
THANK YOU! ^_^
HARRY POTTER STUFF… *insert guy rainbow drooling here*
